2010-Finally conquering the problem

2010 is the year...the year, things change for me. I have been yo-yoing for almost 15 years now on various diet, exercise plan known to man. Before Christmas I began reading "Food Addiction" by Kay Sheppard. The book looked at my problem through the eyes of an addict. Suddenly it all became very clear why I have had such a difficult time losing weight, keeping it off, and ultimately, being healthy. Using the lessons learned from Kay Sheppard's wisdom I am now beginning week three of a sober life from destructive eating. I have been relatively craving free, and suddenly have self control and choice over what I eat. I live not for food, but for living healthy now. My hope it that this lifestyle will wash away and help restore the damage I have done to my body in the last 28 years. I am 6'2 and weigh 215 pounds at the start of this adventure. I will not weigh in again until February 5, 2010. Weight is a symptom of my addiction and therefore, I will not be concentrating on my weight all the time, rather making healthy decisions and controlled choices. I still have nagging voices that gode me into thinking I should obsess about my weight or the number of calories I have eaten, however I am able to focus on my health.
Starting tomorrow I will begin testing my blood sugar on a fairly regular basis to see if my glucose levels are improving or not. I wanted to give myself a solid two week introduction without getting to bogged down in that relm of my existance.
I am diabetic. I was diagnosed last year, as with all good intentions, I spent a year eating myself through the anger, fear, and anxiety of having the same disease my mom passed away from.
I eat three meals a day and one before bed snack. The meals I am eating are void of the following:
1. Gluten
2. Sugar
3. Refined/Processed foods

Despite my initial thoughts this leaves me with a plethora of food options and has re-defined how I look at foods. A typical grocery store visit is comprised of the outside perimeter of the store (produce, meat, dairy). I do make a detour to the frozen veggie section and rice/grains. The end result is a rainbow of color and options for me to eat each week. Suddenly, I find myself in the kitchen more and eating things I always thought I disliked. CABBAGE!
I can not begin to tell you how much of an impact these initial changes have made upon me. It is like a carb fog has lifted, I feel less bloated, more energetic, my moods continue to stabilize, I am noticing weight loss through clothes fitting better. Overall I feel AWESOME!
I realized I have been poisoning my body for far too long.
I am beginning week three, and look forward to the coming year and seeing the difference eating healthy and taking care of myself will make. I know I will continue to learn and develop.