Lunch:
My typical rutine would be to run to mcdonalds or Taco Bell and eat the following:
Medium Fry
Large Coke
Double Cheeseburger plain
Deluxe Club Chicken Sandwich
or
Large Mountain Dew
Two Bean Burritos
Nachos Bel Grande without Beef and Bean
Easentially I would down my whole days worth of calories and then feel guilt for doing it.
Today I had a 220 calorie Lean Cuisine which was entitled:
Thia Style Chicken: Grilled chicken tenderloins in a red pepper sauce with basil, coconut milk, soy, ginger, served with rice.
It tasted really good, but I will have to get used to portion sizes. I also need to accept that I will NEVER BE FULL! Realistically I just need to eat nutritious foods and be satisfied with that.
I have realized that over the past four years I do not require myself to make food choices. Instead of choosing what I want from the bazillion options I allow myself several different options, which leads to eating too much, and making poor decisions. An example of this can be seen in my daily lunch choices I make. Yet, the "dollar menu" enforced this concept through making it all too easy and cheap to order serveral items.
I suspect I will be slightly food obsessed over the next couple of days...as I change some of the negative behaviors and habits.
I plan on going to Kroger tonight to pick up some more microwave meals. What I like about these meals is that they are portion controlled, convenient, and many very tasteful. I usually try to wait until the new years to start a plan such as this, but then if I mess it up I feel extremely guilty and usually fall off the bandwagon. Jump starting should help me get into the process before the pressure of the season arrives.
I have also realized I should be saving a great deal of money that I will not be spending on going out to eat. I will be using my lunchtime to blog and reflect on this experience, perhaps I will have some cathartic experience that helps to fully understand why I have yo-yoed for years and that I use food as cruch when I am emotionally overwhelmed. Not to mention it will save me from driving up the street from temptation lain. Within a 1/2 mile radius of work I have the following temptations:
Krispy Kream, Mcdonalds, Taco Bell, Ralley's, Dairy Queen, Sonic, Arby's, Wendy's, Pizza Hut...and probably any other fastfood goodness you can imagine.
Ok enough rambling for now.
3 comments:
That whole being full is something I definitely struggle with. I think its the adjustment we have to make mentally. It is the difference between no longer being hungry (satisfied) versus being full (slam packed).
My favorite Lean Cuisine is the Santa Fe Rice one. I used to go to Weight Watchers and they suggested adding more veggies to those things if you were still hungary after eating them--like tossing a handful of frozen peas in with it or something. I am so proud of you!
I agree with January! Throw it on a bed of lettuce and viola.....you have a taco salad. Enjoy with some baked tostitos. You have inspired me to make better choices Patrick :)
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